Solo day

Interesting. I assumed that if any song would be stuck in my head today, it would be my solo. But instead, it was "Strangely Dim".  I was so nervous about singing this morning that I couldn't even sleep. When I woke up, this was the song I had... I have always, always known that I have to keep my focus on Him when I am singing at church. If I start thinking about myself or how I sound, or who is listening and what they think- then I do worse, and I miss the point of singing the song. Every time I have ever just focused on the reason I was singing, and left it to Him, I have done fine. Even a few times when I was sick and had no voice- just for that one song, suddenly my voice came back and I did great, and as soon as the song was over, I had laryngitis again... 

So I tried my best to stay calm. I couldn't hit any of the notes in practice, but I still tried to tell myself that it was going to work out fine. I kept thinking of this song. I kept telling myself that it would be just like in Palm Desert, and my voice would just be there when it needed to be. 

And it was. I think the solo went fine. I had to go falsetto on a few notes at the end, but the choir was singing at the same time, so I think it was unnoticed. But the high note- the one I was worried about- I hit it without a problem. Clear as a bell, I'm pretty sure. So I was very happy and thankful for that.  And thankful for this song. 

Strangely Dim

I've had all these plans piled up sky high

A thousand dreams on hold

And I don't know why,

I got a front row seat

To the longest wait

And I just can't see

Past the things I pray

Today

But when I fix my eyes on all that You are

Then every doubt I feel

Deep in my heart

Grows strangely dim

All my worries fade

And fall to the ground

Cause when I seek Your face

And don't look around

Any place I'm in

Grows strangely dim

Sometimes where I stand

On this narrow road

Is in a raging storm

Or a valley low

But oh

When I fix my eyes on all that You are

Then every doubt I feel

Deep in my heart

Grows strangely dim

All my worries fade

And fall to the ground

Cause when I seek Your face

And don't look around

Any place I'm in

Grows strangely dim

I don't know, I don't know

What tomorrow may hold

But I know, but I know

That You're holding it all

So no matter what may come

I'm gonna fix my eyes on all that You are

'Til every doubt I feel

Deep in my heart

Grows strangely dim

Let all my worries fade

And fall to the ground

I'm gonna seek Your face

And not look around

Til the place I'm in

Grows strangely, strangely, strangely dim.