More Beautiful You

This afternoon, I wrote W a letter. I told him everything. Everything. I sent it at exactly 2pm, and I waited in a complete panic for him to read it and say something. Or say nothing. Or never speak to me again... I just waited. The more I thought of all the things I had written- all the things I had told him, and all the shameful things I had admitted to- the more despondent I became, and the more ashamed and worthless I felt... 

As I was leaving work, W sent a text, saying something about choir. As though I had not just laid my life bare in front of him... I asked him if he had read the letter. He said he hadn't and he would read it right then... As I got in the car, I started to think that was the last time I would ever hear from him. 

This is the song that was playing when I started the car... 

"More Beautiful You"

Jonny Diaz

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine

Says she wants to look that way

But her hair isn't straight, her body isn't fake

And she's always felt overweight

Well, little girl fourteen I wish that you could see

That beauty is within your heart

And you were made with such care, your skin, your body and your hair

Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you

Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through

You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do

So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty one the things that you've already done

Anything to get ahead

And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan

Only wants what you will do instead

Well, little girl twenty one you never thought that this would come

You starve yourself to play the part

But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true

And He'll treat you like the jewel you are

There could never be a more beautiful you

Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through

You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do

So there could never be a more beautiful you, more beautiful you

So turn around you're not too far

To back away be who you are

To change your path go another way

It's not too late, you can be saved

If you feel depressed with past regrets

The shameful nights hope to forget

Can disappear, they can all be washed away

By the one who's strong, can right your wrongs

Can rid your fears dry, all your tears

And change the way you look at this big world

He will take your dark distorted view

And with His light, He will show you truth

And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

That there could never be a more beautiful you

Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through

You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do

So there could never be a more beautiful you

There could never be a more beautiful you