Strangely Dim

I've had all these plans piled up sky high
A thousand dreams on hold
And I don't know why,
I got a front row seat
To the longest wait
And I just can't see
Past the things I pray
Today

But when I fix my eyes on all that You are
Then every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade
And fall to the ground
Cause when I seek Your face
And don't look around
Any place I'm in
Grows strangely dim

Sometimes where I stand
On this narrow road
Is in a raging storm
Or a valley low
But oh

When I fix my eyes on all that You are
Then every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
All my worries fade
And fall to the ground
Cause when I seek Your face
And don't look around
Any place I'm in
Grows strangely dim

I don't know, I don't know
What tomorrow may hold
But I know, but I know
That You're holding it all
So no matter what may come

I'm gonna fix my eyes on all that You are
'Til every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
Let all my worries fade
And fall to the ground
I'm gonna seek Your face
And not look around
Til the place I'm in
Grows strangely, strangely, strangely dim.

All For You

This time, this place is set apart
I stand amazed at who You are
I'm overcome by what You've done, oh

I'm here right now, I need You now
I lift Your name above the doubt
This is my offering for You
For You, for You


Chorus:
‘Cause it's all for You, all for You
Every heart will proclaim
Every tongue will shout Your praise
All for You, oh, oh, oh
All for You, oh, oh, oh


I leave my burden at Your feet
In You I find my victory
There is nothing You can't do, oh

I'll live my life in Your renown 
I'll give it all and lay it down
‘Cause I owe everything to You
To You

All will hear, all will see
Love came down and we are free
All will hear, all will see
Love came down and we are free

‘Cause it's all for You, all for You
Every heart will proclaim
Every tongue will shout Your praise

All for You, all for You
Every heart will proclaim
Every tongue will shout Your praise

All for You, oh, oh, oh
(All will hear, all will see)
All for You, oh, oh, oh
(Love came down and we are free)

All will hear, all will see
Love came down and we are free
All will hear, all will see
Love came down and we are free

All will hear, all will see
Love came down and we are free

Marble 24

I made calls this week. I called several people from the rooms, and then W. I felt better each time. I still can't do it easily, but i think it was a huge step.

Music

I have always had a connection to music that not everyone can understand. To me, music is the only way to truly express my feelings. Sometimes, the words to a song are the only way I can articulate something that I have been struggling to get across. I have always known that the way I communicate with my Higher Power, God, is through music.

I discovered a long time ago that when I listed to K-Love (Christian) radio station, that it seemed that every single time I got in the car, the song that played said something that I desperately needed to hear. Sometimes, it was something I didn't want to hear, but I knew it was true... Songs about God's unconditional love, or maybe about forgiving others....

In the last few months, I have been asking God to talk to me through the music. I have prayed for Him to tell me what I need to know, and what I need to do by placing the right song on the radio at the right time. I always pay very close attention to the very first song that plays when I get in the car.

One thing I have noticed is a very, very obvious theme. Song after song, I hear that God can make all things new- that you can leave your past behind- that you are not defined by your past, or your mistakes- that God's mercy and forgiveness are bigger than anything you could have done wrong... Over and over I hear this.

Lately I have been noticing that every morning when I wake up, there is a song stuck in my head. Always a contemporary christian song, and almost never a song that I was listening to before bed, or that I even remember listening to recently. I asked God if He was placing the songs there for a reason, and if so, I would start listening carefully to what he was saying.

I have started keeping track of what song I am thinking of every morning when I wake up. Sometimes it is so obvious that He is trying to tell me something.

Marble 23

Valentine's Day. No Valentine. I was glad for that. Mr. K passed away at work. I was very sad about that. Cried for a long, long time... 

Marble 22

He just sowed up unannounced at my house. I was home from work and church, sick. Finally had a serious sit-down conversation with him and told him not to come back.

Marble 21

Learned to use Skype